Congratulations to the winners of SP Most Photogenic 2009, M3 Keith and F4 Petrine!

All good things must come to an end though, and it was fun while it lasted. It was great to have found lovely new buddies like classmates Hisyam and Jamie who were finalists M1 and F1 respectively; and to have worked hard with the other SP Photographers was an experience never to be forgotten too.

Especially when playing with the studio equipment! KENDRICK! :)

(Gay buddies! Gayness FTW! xD)

It was also a time full of trials; a time that revealed who our true friends were. Seriously. What does not not kill, will only make one stronger. And someone had to learn that the harsh way. Of course I was disappointed but I do hope that we all learn and extract something valuable from this misfortune.

Ah. Forget it man.

(My wife gets handled by alot of people, seriously. But I guess sharing is caring! :D)

But there were definitely more magical moments for us to find comfort in! Like real ones! Like how my instant films could pop out of my Instax just like that! Developed right away infront of someone somemore! Real fun! Real joy! MARCUS! ;)

And we will hopefully remember only those times that made us happy. Not the negatives. Forget the negatives. We cannot afford to be sad. We need to move on.

(Leave..)

“You must dare to disassociate yourself from those who would delay your journey… Leave, depart, if not physically, then mentally. Go your own way, quietly, undramatically, and venture toward trueness at last.”
— Vernon Howard

And we will never be foolish again..

I do not know what took me so long to post this entry up, since the draft was already created almost four days ago. Actually, there are a couple more things still left outstanding but they seemed destined to be unaccomplished and left for dead.

About iforgothowmanydaysago, San came over to my place for her green packet. She just wanted that and that only. So I made her stay on longer of course because I love hanging around with her so much! She pleaded with me to just let her go because she could not bear to be with me as she feared I would be too much of a temptation for her — she said I looked delicious.

LOL KIDDING!

Hahahaha!

But I really do love hanging around with her — she wrestles, and has the potential to break my strong fingers into pitiful pieces. She is like a guy’s worst nightmare. Like totally.

(Meet my babe, Lubi..)

That is my new-found beauty, Lubitel aka Lubi aka sexybeast. A Russian guy sold it to me through eBay and this metal chick looked so cosmetically-pristine despite its age! She runs on 120mm film but recently I modded her to accept 135mm since I had no 120mm with me but only a Provia 100 which was originally intended for Denise’s F75. Now speaking of Denise, that girl better be glad now that no more fungus is on her lens and her F75 is seriously spanking clean now. She should totally consider leaving this hottie with me for ever and ever and ever and ever and ever.

And ever and ever.

Like seriously.

Really, no kidding.

Anyway, I did a test roll on the Lubi and sent it to Uncle Mike of Triple D to have it cross-processed with sprocket holes! Oh boy, I really hope the photos will turn out fine when I collect it later on! Ohmygodohmygodohmygod, they better be!! I will have to fork out like twelve freaking dollars even if they do not turn out to be like how I wished. And that is so ohmycrap expensive!

Punch.

(The real San..)

I think I will look like Evil San if my Lubi photos turn out to be craptastic, or fantastically crap, or fantacrap, when I collect it from the lab after school. Have I mentioned anywhere that I will still be working part-time with Watsons even when school starts? So this trip to Burlington Squre better be worth it or I will be crying my snot out regretting not buying this month’s train fare concession.

(Oh my gosh, her French Toasts totally rocks!! With the kaya, it was swwwweeeeeett!)

Ever since we first hung out at Raffles City’s Ya Kun Kaya Toast, San and I had totally fell head over heels over their simple but irresistably-yummylicious toasts! Remember my forty-third P365 entry titled ‘BLEED‘? It was taken there just before I gobbled down on those super huge eggs. Actually, I am not so sure what eggs were used but they were amazingly huge, like twins!

San had them and it will be good if she has twins in the future but she mentioned to me that she does not want to be married so now I have no idea where her twins will come from. Hmm..

That ‘TWO THUMBS UP’ shots of San was taken at The Cathay after she spared some of her precious time modelling for me at my place.

And my Lubi is looking so photogenic in it! Awww!

Hugs.

Oh, the both of us are planning to visit all the Ya Kun outlets in Singapore. BUT, I wonder how many are there in total?

Hee.

(San is now officially famous, widely-known amongst my group of international friends! Woah!)

School will start in a few hours time and I am still so wide awake. I think I could be too excited for school to officially begin. San is meeting me at Toa Payoh later on before school so I guess that is double joy for us? Oh man, I better fall to sleep soon before the sun rises!

(But my fan broke down, I have not gotten a replacement yet so now I am too restless to be comforted enough to sleep. Oh, plus the ever-so-irritating mosquitoes, my night-life is a mess right now. Pfft.)

Enjoy your new school semester my friends! <3

(..is also his loincloth. LOL!)

Life is certainly much better now, thank you.

It was a day of mixed feelings for me on Sunday as it started pleasingly between me and my beloved
until a series of other events unrelated to her made me a little disheartened about certain things and
it involved a bit of self-actualisation too. But I will not touch on it here because the futility makes the
mention of it quite dumb just like the subject to this topic. I swear there are things that need to be
sorted out right now but even if I try hard, I doubt the same will happen with the other party.

Trust is a heavy word, really.

(The three-headed sexy beast with the fierce Jacky-head, happy Justin-head, and confused Rusydi-head.)

When I was younger, my dearest mother always demanded that I trust no other people except those from
my household. Did ‘demand’ seem too strong of a word here? No I do not think so, especially after considering
the validity of its usage and its importance. But why only my direct relatives, and not even my cousins?

(Someone seems to be missing from this photo right Zeng Siong?)

It took me quite some time to understand that no one can ever love a person more than his own family does.
Sometimes it can be utterly puzzling to accept this statement straight but if sufficient time for thought is given,
that person will eventually be able to fathom this simple yet somehow misunderstood fact.

I guess experience plays a part, and not to forget maturity too because I reckon no young punk out there
believes that not even a word of your best friend should be dissolved in you. Controversial? No. Eat this
opinion whole unless you have spent enough time with your family to refute this claim which I think
can never be achieved even until you have spent half a century of your life wondering if your own family
loves you.

(Look at Justin! He is asking to be punched, really.)

Your own family definitely loves you; they only seem not to (you claimed) because you have not given your
whole heart to try to perceive them by becoming less selfish and forcing yourself to get out of your narrowed
mentality.

How can anyone even have the audacity to judge that there is a lack of love reserved for him or herself in the
family?

How could you blame your parents for what you are now?

Do you know why these people are called childish? Simply because, they have not grown up enough. If they
are, they will definitely know whom to trust more.

Amongst friends, you should definitely trust the one who values you more than anything; the one who cares
for you, at least.

Ever since I told my colleagues I do not really leave home without my compact camera at least, these guys
totally went bonkers! I never realised these people were photo-whoring freaks! And I loved it!

(I certainly did not like how the entrance looked like, heh.)

Since Woodleigh is located at the now exhumed Bidadari Cemetery, it is common to hear about rumours
and sightings related to this station, especially by those who works nearby or at the station itself. Someone
once said they saw your ’sister’ down at the tracks, while others swore to hearing music playing in the
female toilet — I cannot say these are true but work becomes more interesting if we start believing in it.

(I thought this one looked kind of cool, until I realised my ‘broken arm’. Noooo!)

Obviously my 1000D did not accompany me to work, rather it was mostly my F40FD doing all the dirty
jobs and she did them all exceptionally well. It had never failed me so far that was why I had been hesitating
all along whenever I was close to purchasing another compact like the LX3 or the G10. If I did, it would
have been betrayal. Besides, this beauty has the additional function of video-recording so I cannot see why
it should ever be left at home.

That is why it sits in my bag almost always! :)

(The so-called ‘Youngest Three’ at my workplace. Hahaha flattery eh, I am the youngest! :P)

Work will be a bore if it is done alone without good company. It is worse when it is something laborious
like what I am doing. The same goes for school right? Without good people like the Feople, I doubt I
will be more motivated to study. Good Feople make good music too! Haha!

(Without this guy and his coffee, I would not have survived all the late night work. You rock bro!)

I think I have been consuming too much coffee these days, even in school sometimes. But I guess it cannot
be helped since I need these caffeinated products just to keep me going. I know they are bad in the long run
but I cannot find any other alternatives right now. I hate coffee also because being a diuretic it makes the loo
the most frequented; I smell more like the air fresheners in these toilets now!

(These camwhoring dudes love my camera totally. So they rock big time! :D)

I will not lie. The only thing that motivates me at work is money. If I got no money, I cannot be independent.
That is why I am working right now friends. I am old enough to get engaged you know, so I should be saving
up more. If I keep saying I do not have enough money, that is probably because these income goes straight
to my savings or to my parents for their own use. I should not trouble anyone — human should strive not to
trouble anyone beside their own selves.

(At the staff room after our hard work. Air-conditioned some more!)

I was a little ill-disciplined a few years back and because of money and girl, I lost focus. I do not want to
say much about this. At your age, you should not be looking for partners yet; it can get a little distracting
because you are just too young to understand. I made that mistake last time so I am the in the best position
to advise all of you. Like really, do not bother wishing for a partner yet. Teenagers are just too immature for that.

(We do not do this often but only on Friday nights. Being on the Woodleigh tracks on Friday was.. FUN!)

Just enjoy what you all have now friends. Love what you own now and have fun while you are still young.
I never said I am that old though. Heh.

I have been tolerating almost seven months of dust, noise and smell pollutions just because of the
construction effort that is still ongoing around my estate. The poundings here are insane, totally!

But these are for the benefit of the residents here; though I still can not understand why my four-storeyed
flat requires a lift. For what?

The only plus point I can think of right now is that I will no longer be laboured into carrying cartons
and cartons of drinks up my winding stairs in preparation for Hari Raya which is in about two months
time. I could still remember my mother tripping while lugging plastic bags up the accursed steps.
I will never mind carrying these load even ten floors up; I am more worried about my parents and
my sisters who will perhaps be more relieved to take the lift up instead of our creepy staircase at night.
I mean, everytime when I walk up the stairs I have this weird, unnerving coldness that seems to wrap
my neck and back; my legs tend to get heavier too - it is as if suddenly someone hugs my back like
I am giving it a piggyback ride. Unexplainable, but I cannot do much about it can I? Bleah.

There are probably more aging residents here in my estate which is kind of true I think.

So this lift is close to completion.

Actually, I find lifts to be more eerie. See that doll there? It makes everything worse!

PS. The doll’s name is Suzie. I saw it on her dress..
PPS. The Suzie crawling along the corridor part.. it is not true obviously.

It is so simple to be afraid..

I was thinking of adding a ghostly apparition as reflection on the glass window but I changed my mind.
It could turn out to be real one day, so I better not play with this kind of joke..

Especially with my beloved camera!

x(

Oh. HAPPY JUNE my friends! Lots of birthdays coming up this month right right?? Kekeke.

Yesterday was a beautiful Saturday but not due to the weather because it rained on me when I left my house.
Rather, it was because Joonies wore something beautiful for our class meet-up! I was stunned, literally.

HAHAHA!

(Joosty getting hungry already. Where is my food?)

“Joosty was a university student who was looking for a diamond ring for his mother’s birthday on Sunday;
Rooshdee was a working student who had to survey for a diamong ring for his soon-to-be fiancee in two
months time.
They found this jewellery shop and decided to source around..”

The act was so convincing, I think the sales assistant got fooled. Nice one Joosty!

(Sometimes, being narcissistic is good. Like Joosty, the photogenic!)

So that was basically what we did for our next IDEAS assignment. Hmm.. I wonder what is this night
cycling trip that Ms Yip mentioned about to 1A02. It involves the photographers of 1A01 (Joosty and I)
so that is why I am a little concerned here. Ahh..

(Grr..)

So who came for this outing this time?
Evon, Joonies, Joosty, Jackfruit, Ah Siong, Delvin, Keech, Bengee, Wilfred, Yinsan and I of course.
Keech got for himself a no-degree pair of spectacles for a change of style and ended up making himself
looking far geekier — a cute geek Joonies cannot resist, definitely. How Keech, how?

Good thing we noticed that your specs was flawed and bent, if not you will be wearing it to school and
be a walking joke. No kidding! I do not think your eyes will become smaller from its use though. I think..

(A hungry woman is a scornful, emo woman..)

Evon did her own shopping before the guys even met so that saved us some trouble though I would
have preferred tagging along as well. I would love to see your bargaining skills!
But come to think of it, you were right — men will never understand women..
I never knew the distance from Suntec City to Marina Square was so far, it took you girls half hour
to reach us. HAAAH!

(Bengee’s promotional poster for his latest CD album. HAHA!)

Yinsan left even before she met us, which was a bummer but she must have had her own reasons.
Well at least she came right? Maybe next time she can hang around a little longer and crap abit
with the rest of the gang — the more the merrier!

(You do not look like a Chinese in this one, seriously. I think I made you look like a Caucasian!)

The games that were played while we waited for Ah Siong were totally, totally insane but FUN!
To name a few: Game of Concentration, Titititi/Tuki Tuki/Tongka Tongka (WTH!), Ahh What!, etc..
I think I overcooked my brain for these. I am too old for these kind of challenges!
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(Joonies looking as hot and seductive as ever!)

The route to Joosty’s crib was long from Aljunied but it was great going through the different lorongs
of Geylang; and the temples that lined alongside the streets; and that solitary mosque. I love long walks!
Thanks to all of you for showing great understanding, knowing that I am a little particular about food being Halal
for my consumption and all and being accomodating to your fellow Muslim friend here. I love you all loads!!

The ghost stories told between walks were real though I did not mean to spook you all. And yes, I do
believe in the supernaturals. Delvin, you were right in saying that everyone can feel them and not all
are ‘gifted’ enough to see these things. And Joonies, thanks for that ‘light fire’ thingy. I might not have
understood its significance but I was definitely touched by the care shown. And to the others too.
Let us protect each other, not spook each other out, right Joosty?

HAHA!

Thanks Delvin for sharing that dish you bought. You rock!

(Ah Siong with his berms and loafers. Good thing it did not rain on him again. HAHA!)

The camwhoring session after dinner was really funny and all of these photos were already uploaded
on Facebook. I know I have not posted much candid shots of me, so now here is the chance to catch me!
I ended up sleeping at Joosty’s while the others hopped on Papa Jackfruit’s car to be sent home after that.
It has been such a long time since I last showered in warm water and I admit it felt really good..
I prefer cold showers though because it is simply awesome possum and rejuvenating!

Now that Joosty’s kind of familiar with photo-processing using Photoshop, I really cannot wait for him
to get his own DSLR to partner me in the future. We will pair up like Batman and Robin..
You, Robin of course!

Or Pinky and The Brain.
You be Pinky, I am The Brain. Fair enough?

xD

(I should have brought a tripod next time. Than using my bag. One cool shot, this one.)

Thanks Joosty for the hospitality, even though you pulled our shared blanket away from me and left
me frozen for an hour in your air-con before I moved to your second mattress and hid under your
bedsheet. You selfish, greedy punk!

But I carried on sleeping until noon still. Heh.

I had one of the worse nightmares ever this morning.
I dreamt that someone stole my bag while I was asleep in a bus.
And inside my bag contained my favourite EOS 1000D!

I cried in my dream!

That qualified itself to be one of the worse, if not the worst, nightmare ever for the whole of
MY LIFE!